LEAP OF FAITH

I have always been an overtly open person, and I enjoy being that. I am just a commoner, with my own way of life. People criticize my ways, crib and complain...but I go my way. I do not think I can change myself after all these years.

My maternal family and my friends are my pillars of strength..they make me roll. I do not have the luxury of having a great many friends, although I am a very social person...but the ones I have, are really precious to me..

I have been requested by one and all...known and unknown...relatives and acquaintances..to take a leap of faith. A leap of faith..now thats a big and huge leap. I was confused myself..what do I do? I am a cynic, so that complicates matters for those around me. I never said I am easy.

I had been on a high for the last few days..I thought maybe its time I took the leap of faith..maybe its the right time. But always situations do not always favor me, do they!! Yes, the filmi me...my life is such a melodrama..or do I make my life into a melodrama..I have not been able to solve that riddle. I have lost out a lot of people in my life, because like relationships, even friendships come with an expiry date.

The leap of faith would be the right decision...its the right time, I was convincing myself, till about an hour back..when again, another internet communication disturbed me a bit. Its nothing, its just a normal strain of communication between two people who know each other..but its the nature of things which disturb me. It something I do not appreciate, and that just repeats itself..Some people do not understand, do they?! The leap of faith..would that be a good idea?!

Well, why not?! I should take the leap of faith as that would take me through a whole new experience..and I want that experience. Let me just do it for having that experience..and experience ..the joys which I was denied ruthlessly almost exactly a year back..Let me do it for myself..and not for any faith or anything else..I want to live the moment which that leap takes me to..want to feel it..want to make the experience memorable for myself...and if things go awry again...I will just emerge stronger from the situation..because I do not think I have a breaking point. So..I will take the leap...because I like thrills..and I want a thrilling journey ...just for myself..its high time, I became selfish!!